wow, i haven't written a journal in a looong time.

well to start off... my birthday is in 18 days. and ichthus is coming up in april!

so last night was by far one of the BEST nights of my life. me and sam hit that fall out boy tour. it was awesome. the academy is became my new favorite band and we got to meet the singer and drummer. the singer is the most gorgeous guy i've ever seen in my life. i'm not even kidding. i think alot of guys are hot.. but wow. he's sooo cute. he's also REALLY nice. everyone we met was super nice.
when we were getting our shirts, me and sam got made fun of by the merch guy and the guitarist for gym class heroes. hahah.. good times.
i got kicked in the head from a guy crowd surfing when the academy was playing. it was mos def worth it. i learned to love moshpits. i can't wait until ichthus and warped tour now. woot.
i feel bad for sam since she didn't get to meet pete. BUT, he did get his sweat on her. so that counts for something.. hahah. it's alright though because we got to meet william. *sigh* we also got to meet the singer for midtown which is also a good band. that guy was nice too.. he gave sam a free cd since she got her glasses broken.
we got about 3 hours of sleep last night. that was fun.
i LOVE music and going to shows. i was thinking... what would anyone do without music? it'd be like.. okay, let's listen to silence. fun.
i'm so glad i get my license soon so i can go to shows all the time.

i'm going to mexico this summer.

the guy i wrote about in my last journal dropped out of school. how depressing. oh well... 'cause there's someone else. hahah.

today was one of those good days that ended badly.

-half day of school. woot.
-went to pizza hut with brianna, brooke, stacey, meghan, nikki, and jaden. (me, nikki, and meghan reunited from driver's ed last summer.)
-next went to graham's to celebrate doug's 17th birthday which is today.
-ended up at doug's g-ma's finishing the celebration. stacey makes me laugh and i love her.
-brianna came over and we finished watching cold mountain. it's probably a good thing that she lied to me about the ending because then i wouldn't have watched it and even though the movie is great, it made me sad.
-lost erin again, but luckily we found her under my dresser and bri caught her.
-went to youth group. not much excitement there.
-came home, got on here, and met christine. she's flippin' awesome.
-sam is back!! which is great because she always makes me happy when i'm down. for example:
/we'll have that movie kiss we talked about. says:
oooh, i'm sure he won't make it that easy. that's what dicks do. they...suck. actually they don't..unless there is something wrong with them. but some of them get sucked...so dicks and sucking are related in a way.

i love friends. the good friends, that is.

i have a crush on someone. a little one. i've never talked to him before in my life and i don't plan on it.. he's just one of those people you admire even though you know they have a bad influence on you. nobody else would think he was attractive and i'm sure his personality probably isn't. i'm not sure on his name even though him and his brother are both in one of my classes. he's one of those people i'd change my mind about.. because i change my mind ALOT. and i figured out that's a bad thing.
i also figured out that it's not a good idea to speak your mind when you're mad. but some people just make you snap and when you apologize they don't accept it because i guess it's just that easy to get over someone you've been friends with for a while. oh well.. not my loss.

everyone.

Brand New
"Seventy Times 7"

Back in school they never taught us what we needed to know,
like how to deal with despair, or someone breaking your heart.
For twelve years I've held it all together but a night like this is begging to pull me apart.
I played it quiet, left you deep in conversation.
I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen.
I remember I kept thinking that I know you never would,
and now I know I want to kill you like only a best friend could.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to.

As if this happening wasn't enough I got to go
and write a song just to remind myself how bad it sucked.
Ignore the sun, the cover's over my head.
I wrote a message on my pillow that says, "Jesse, stay asleep in bed."
So don't apologize. I hope you choke and die.
Search your cell for something with which to hang yourself.
They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven
but they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to
And everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again.)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)

So, is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with.
Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish.
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there's ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.

And is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back.
So let's end this call, and end this conversation.
and is that what you call a getaway?
well tell me what you got away with.
cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say best friends means friends forever

So, is that what you call a getaway?
Well tell me what you got away with.
Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish.
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids.
Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there's ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.

Everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)
And everyone's caught on to everything you do (And I can't let you, let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to (And I can't let you, let me down again)

The summer of 2004 was the most infinite summer of my life. I was thinking alot about it today because i realized i'm so much happier in the spring/summer. Winter makes me depressed. I know that's lame but oh well. So many wonderful things happened last summer and if this summer is even half as great as last then i'll be very happy. Me and Brianna became best friends over the summer. "The Night" took place. Harold took us to Warped Tour. I went to a CKY concert with one of my favorite people, Chloe. Plus so many other great things happened.

This journal is dedicated to everyone that made last summer happy for me.

i all of you guys.

So me and Heather each bought a mouse yesterday and i bought a baby one. She was the most adorable loving baby ever and i named her erin. Not even 9 hours after i got her.. i was playing with her on my bedroom floor and i lost her.

... so yeah.. there's a mouse loose in my house.

wow.. so this weekend has rocked so far.
yesterday after school i went home with sam and we had a great "girl" night. after thinking for 4 days and looking through the phone book we never decided on a certain plan. we ended up taking an outing to wal-mart. wal-mart is THE place to hang out. got my homecoming pictures back, picked out paint for my room, got hair stuff for sam for her hot hair, bought donuts (or doughnuts). when we got back to her house we made a cd with great music on it to listen to when sam did my hair.. we had a great LONG talk about pretty much.. everything. even though it was mainly complaining we did, i still enjoyed it.

today we woke up and went to get our hair done. even though kiley got the right idea of my haircut... it wasn't exactly as even as i liked it to be so sam's nice hair lady cut it straight. sam got her hair dyed and it's freakin' hotter than anything. i am jealous. after getting our hair done, we went to mcdonalds and i got a lizzie mcguire toy.

later on today matt and jake picked us up to make a movie. sam and matt are the actors in the movie and it's quite hilarious.. i just stood there and watched and couldn't stop laughing. we then went to taco bell and hung out there for a while. matt koester is one of the funniest/nicest people i know now. i hope we hang out more. he's a cutie. (there was lots of laughing, name calling, and stories during the time spent together.) i love those people.

tonight brianna, jaden, and stacey picked me up from my house and we drove around ALOT and stopped by chad arnold's party for a few minutes. ended up at stacey's for a while. now i'm home.

i hate it when great people are sad.
i also hate jerk-y boys.

(kirby humping atari and my embaressing incident are things to keep me laughing for a while.)

lakeview drive won't be the same without robert..

wow.. this is long. thought about deleting it and summarizing it better but nah.. haha.